learning to love father's day

This past week my students were making the sweetest cards for their dads to give them on Father's Day.  They were listing 5 things they love about them, and as I was making an example for them I was quickly reminded of the emotions I hold with me on Father's Day.  When others are sharing pictures of them on their dad's laps when they were a child, or thanking their dad for all of the love they've shown, I'm filled with sadness and hopelessness.  

We all have a story, and I've shared bits and pieces about this story of mine.  Today I'm opening up a bit more about this part of my life.  My parents divorced when I was a baby, and then my mom remarried.  My stepdad was there for most of my upbringing and was who I called "dad".  I continually yearned for his approval and love, and was left a crumbled mess when they divorced and he wanted nothing to do with me.  Fortunately, my mom is now remarried to an amazing man who I'm proud to have as a stepdad.  

But I wouldn't be lying if I told you that I still long for that daddy-daughter relationship that many have had.  It has been a very big process getting over a parent that is no longer a part of your life.  

But this year is very different than years past, because this Father's Day I get to think about my husband who is one amazing dad.  I get to beam with pride thinking about how much he dotes on Nathan, gives him all of his attention, kisses him nonstop, and oozes love and compassion on our sweet boy.  On my days off, Daniel will wake up before me to get the baby out of his crib and let me sleep an extra half hour.  And trust me, those 30 minutes make a big difference.  He spends all of his energy on Nathan when he is home, throwing him in the air, helping him sit up, playing with his toys.  He constantly assures me that I'm doing a good job, and has been my biggest cheerleader in this new season of life.  Daniel works tireless hours, is continually exhausted from work, yet comes home cheerful and eager to play with his son.  He wants to make memories with him, take him to the beach, teach him how to throw a ball.  He dreams of the day when they can go fishing together, and never gets discouraged when Nathan is plain old fussy.  His patience is something that I can't even comprehend, and admire more and more each day.  Daniel's sense of humor is hysterical and balances out my, at times, high-strung personality.  

To say that I'm blessed to do life with this husband of mine is an understatement.  And this Father's Day all I feel is love, joy, and happiness because I get to see the type of relationship unfold in front of my eyes that I always longed for.