honest thoughts from an overdue pregnant gal

As of today I'm 5 days past my due date, and to be quite honest, I'm having a pretty hard time.  Pregnancy is all about waiting, so it comes as no surprise that we are still here waiting.  You wait for the right time to try to get pregnant only for God to show you that the "Right Time" is actually "His Time"- 10 months later.  You wait to tell people you're pregnant, even though it is killing you inside.  You wait to find out the gender, how many fingers and toes he/she has, if all of their organs are operating beautifully, for the nursery to be filled, and for the due date to come.  And here we are, waiting.  As much as I've tried to not become upset, it has been a challenge.  And I think that is a good thing.  I think that God wants us to wrestle with the things that are hard so that we can truly cherish and value the blessings that he gives us and give thanks with clear eyes.

Waiting and patience produces steadfastness, but in the midst of all of it, you realize the multitude of fears that are peaking behind the shadows.  Like the fact that your husband is already on paternity leave, and now it feels like a waste of time since the baby isn't here.  Or the fact that you've tried so very hard to prepare yourself for a natural birth and are now plagued with the fear that they will indeed induce you.  This will mean pitocin, which is the exact opposite of what we want for our birthing time.

But these fears are met by the fact that our baby is healthy and safe.  And a healthy-baby and healthy-mama are our ultimate "plans".  So in my sorrow, disappointment, fears, I'm reminded to take a step back and see what is really going on.  And what is really going on is the fact that we have a healthy baby just waiting for his right birthday to arrive.  We have time on our hands that we have never had before, which has allowed us to take advantage of so many things we've wanted to do.  This time will never come again, so I'm learning (as hard as it might be) to cherish this time and seek out God in every moment so that I can give Him thanks.

In our waiting time, I thought I'd share some things we have been up to…

I've crotched my little hart out and finally made Baby LaFuze THE cutest beanie to wear in the hospital (fingers crossed that it fits) 

The Mr. and I headed to a nearby lake so that he could fish and I finally finished One Thousand Gifts.  

 We finally ventured out to Cinepolis in Del Mar.  Oh.  My. Word.  I don't think I will ever be able to watch a movie in a regular theatre again! 

 I'm officially pretty tired of maternity clothes and have been needing to get creative with some outfits.  Luckily, this chambre top helped me feel a little bit better. 

 We bought the curtains I've been drooling over for the last month and now the nursery is complete. 

 I organized all of my shoes and put together a new shoe rack to take of the heaping pile that was in our closet. 

 Then we ventured down to Coronado last night to see the Del in all of its holiday glory before it gets taken down.  I longed to be ice skating, but settled for a picture in front of their beautiful tree instead :) 

And now we are running out of ideas, so if you have any suggestions for fun adventures in San Diego let us know!